I Write (2012) Not What You Think

I write for the sake of getting by, my every right to try, struggling to make sentence-meat, hanging rib-eye steak debates and words taste great for coffee table conversationalists that arrive early and leave late.  I start off upright, succumb to not right, trophic, planned on company or going out but couldn’t get up, another fall.  I’d rather be outside or near instead of rooted here, someplace else entirely, living like I use to when falling down was funny before it got so serious.  But writing is two-edged, double board certified often less, solitary and sedimentary, more about cutting to the quick, all this-this than not that.

It gets easier except when it don’t, easier to say than to make it pay, coming undone by far the weightiest to the well and ill alike.  So I pretend to be there or someone else entirely, writing to save myself or just let go in the big white space empty, our absent togetherness, absently to tell anybody what nobody knows – that writing saves the soul from the terrible cold of lasting anonymity, mundanity, saves the roll call of another fall to begin, when, this one ends and another one shivs in.

I write to get away with make-believe dreaming and broken remembering, faulty harp strings and elevator door swings for the sake of getting by, my every right to die, struggling to make sensory observations of social deprivations, all this writing trying to make it about the artfulness of alternatives, talking about writing about it, here.

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About rorydean

Rory Dean is a multi-medium artist, writer and new media strategist with a background as a creative consultant and technology liaison in the San Francisco Bay Area. His broad experiences and specialties include print-to-web publicity, promotions and design marketing using traditional and social media networks. As a motion pictures and television professional, his short films, productions and commercials have screened to domestic and international audiences. His connections to a diverse client base include artists, entertainers, corporations, non-profits and everyday people.. Dean is co-owner and founder of Dissave Pictures, a boutique production company focusing on audio, video, photography and multi-media designs. Dean's personal and professional background includes dreaming and avid notebook journaling, creative and copy writing, promotions and marketing, audio/video production, photography, videography, editing, web design and new media. He’s also a fan of collaboration and knows when to turn the reigns over, offer feedback, lead the team and step aside. His portfolio includes print, online, film, video, photography, graphic design and promotions. He’ll show you. He has a book and everything. "When not juggling various online worlds, I do a pretty good mime – but that’s another story."
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4 Responses to I Write (2012) Not What You Think

  1. And YOU Write because WE NEED YOU TOO Write also…Your words are truthes and dirges and love songs and passion and rage and joy all in one moment…..Dessert for the weary soul’s ending to a sometimes sparse meal of living….You are the man Rory.I psoted this..Jim

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  3. rorydean says:

    Gathered there this morning on the precipice of writing, laying down forgetting, leaving creating to others who do not know all this suffering, I wonder if anything will come of doing any of it ever again or can this survive, this need to create, can it survive all the terrible tides preventing me, keeping me, cursing my every effort to be? I can’t know what nobody knows, the spinning sides of four wall corners keeping me down, keeping me in, leaving me as it had come.

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